ugh my dreams are weird.
today i dreamt of this....crazy woman trying to kill me or something. she was old....and crazy. uh she would like rip pieces of my skin half way? so they'd just be dangling there...and then when i thought i killed her (pushed her into the abyss? lol) she came back to haunt me at my house with a baseball bat. and my mom was there and was like hmm? whatt? being all senile. and then after running around the house trying not to die from the crazy lady, my mom is just nonchallantly throwing away the trash. and she says 'hmm i thought i did this already' and then my character, or i, had an aphiphany and was like.....MOM this is all an mental illusion!! wake up! and she suddendly understood and was like aigo -shakes face- and then the dream ended and i woke up to the alarm clock lol. and the sound of my heart beating super fast :/ i could feel it from my chestttt.
at least it wasn't about zombies this time. OH i forgot to mention it didn't end at my mom shaking her head, we actually woke up and then...i think we were talking about how the crazy lady was a doll or something. i forgot the name lol. and then there was another doll named tiffany.............O AO;;; i hope i don't have a sequel. it sounds like such a bad horror movie lol.
but yeah......strange strange dreams. >A<
at least it wasn't about zombies this time. OH i forgot to mention it didn't end at my mom shaking her head, we actually woke up and then...i think we were talking about how the crazy lady was a doll or something. i forgot the name lol. and then there was another doll named tiffany.............O AO;;; i hope i don't have a sequel. it sounds like such a bad horror movie lol.
but yeah......strange strange dreams. >A<
wow
i erased like a whole page of ramblings just now lol. and instead i shall bestow upon my blogger a different thought that i previously wanted to post.
you know i cannot remember myself. well when i was younger. i don't know how i felt back then or what i believed in. i can't remember how i acted or how i thought. it's strange...and scary. i can remember doing things but are those thoughts and beliefs then the same now?
i've always just remembered myself as me. not her. not sally across the pond. just me. so when people say i've changed or become different... i wonder, have i really? i can't notice.
but whatever. i suppose this will continue to happen in my life. though i hope my negative features will change! even if people say.....you can change the paint but not the house. lol? idk
p.s.
im so confused about drawing right now. i really am.
i can draw like always but not really...it's different.
this is scary.
you know i cannot remember myself. well when i was younger. i don't know how i felt back then or what i believed in. i can't remember how i acted or how i thought. it's strange...and scary. i can remember doing things but are those thoughts and beliefs then the same now?
i've always just remembered myself as me. not her. not sally across the pond. just me. so when people say i've changed or become different... i wonder, have i really? i can't notice.
but whatever. i suppose this will continue to happen in my life. though i hope my negative features will change! even if people say.....you can change the paint but not the house. lol? idk
p.s.
im so confused about drawing right now. i really am.
i can draw like always but not really...it's different.
this is scary.
Ahh!
Scary. Inspired by Highschool of the Dead. Good manga. :) But yeah. I hope I don't draw anymore zombies. Honestly they really do freak me out. But sometimes they can be super amusing too...hmm.
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